PROM FIT...

im startn tomorrow...
thisss month has bn a rough month;;;ive bn behind on extra-curricular+...
well i guesss im jusss tryn to say that February is my New-Hope month and it'll js let ME start over...

so ive bn thinkn...

about gettn a time-period purity ring...
imma make mine last until im 22;;;then from there if i choose, 26; from then after i plan to be married so it shldnt matter anymore.
iFeel when ppl hear or discuss purity nd purity rings/balls they feel overwhelmed; i know thisss bcuz i was that person...
so i figured if i came at it from a diff perspective i can see myself actually making that commitment.
so thisss is what i have decided...
just when will i get my chastity ring?
thisss summer before my college life begins? or my 19th bday?
im guesssin whenever i can afford it;;;all of it! lol

sign-in out
-Keo

so things havent changed...

im still havin a crappy dayy...
i know im truly blessed to even experience thisss dayy;;;but its really bringin ME down!
i really wish to go home && do somethings there...
im gettn that feeling again, that i hate!
when i feel like im not learning anything at all at school; not gettn anything accomplished.
i enjoy my econ class because its about real life, and i can say i have learned something from that clase so far.
&& it also helped ME realize that i have it so good in my house-hold. even though i may be considered a low-income student, i live a pretty higher middle class lifestyle, with things that describe a low-income student i was only really able to check off about 5 out of 25. its such an eye-opener of how truly blessed i am. nd how much my mother does for us.

well other than that clase i really dnt find interest in my courses at school.
english is just like i guesss analyzing authors and literature, which is okayy bcuz i like learnin about peoples lives nd so i stay tuned about the authors and artist nd ofcourse their work. but everything else really bores ME.

those are my only classes so...its very hard for ME to get through my day where i have 7 then 6 and now 5 courses nd only 2.5 real subjects that i learn something in.
thisss year has bn such a drag, so not thee senior year i planned or hoped for; even with thee bigg events comin up i feel its not gonna change. i cant wait to im out of hereee; but i know at thee same time i KNOW imma miss thisss school and definitely the ppl who run it, theyre like an a attached family. on thee other hand, some teachers nd definitely 85% of my peers i can live without them...


iGtg bcuz ive already wrote too much,,,
-Keo

oh how i despise rough morning...

they make you assume your dayy ahead will be so horrible;;;just alll badd...
im hungry.
over heated.
nd irritated by him alreadyy...
i really hope tha rest of thisss dayy truly goes well bcuz i dnt have time for thisss crapp!
i guesss i can try to make tha best out of it;;;but its so hard when theyre around:::(ignorant unnecessary ppl)...

signin - out with thisss thought
may have a diff one in thee next few hours, mins, or even secs; you know ME && my mood swings...
-Keo

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oh how i hate sunday nightsss...

i can never go to sleep...

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the dayy after i was left out in tha rain...

like thisss...

but end up eatn thisss:


today thisss happened...
the rising star college program scholarship fundraiser/concert benefit thinggy hahaha,,,it went okayy but it was for a great causeee: ME!
: )

rain down on me...

its already building back up && i jusss released it off my heart on monday...

uplifting...

january 19, 2009...
Agape's Youth Revival
GREAT && EXTRAORDINARY Experience!!!
im gladd i got that all off my chest && shoulders;;;
i truly am revived...

so...

She took iT too well...
i jusss think She has sympathy on ME bcuz of my condition at thee moment;;;
thee aftermath may still come...


we'll see i guesss...

still on my golden track...

even tho i hadd that one badd grade last semester...
my advisor has informed me that i still am goiin to fidm;;;
im so gladd it doesnt take away my dream(s)...
now all iHave to do is inform Her,,, i already know She's gonna go wacko bcuz my other mom has already...

one of thee best dayys of my life...II

idk whyy...

i jusss feel so good inside and about everyone;;;
i guesss iHave to be happy before the tragic episode makes it debut tomorrow or any other dayy thisss week...
lets jusss say iHavent bn a such of thee optimistic person i truly am lately...its jusss thisss pressure pulling me...

leaving home... really, leaving thisss town...

it kickd in i guesss...

imma really miss being in high school, i cant believe its my last year of free eduation;
"freedom".
imma really miss being a teenager.
thinking of leaving my child-hood home kills me at times...
i use to always want to get out of thisss house, home (really town) but i have realized now that imma miss tha familiarity and definitely stability!
the comfort... the safety...
as long as ive bn waiting for thisss Chance to leave,
Now I Just Wanna Keep On Waiting...

the dayy has come...

i have passed thee exit exam!!!
-now i jusss have to deal with thee badd news...atleast She does;;;
gotta be prepared for Her speech and disappointment,,,only thing not only from Her but from Thee Village.
-growing up with four moms and three dads was ofcourse hectic,,,it seems i shld be use to thisss by now...


back to work
-Keo

so for thee past two weeksss...

iHave bn sickc...
x-rays havent came bk yet to see if iHave pneumonia...
i pray iDont;;;it wld really ruin my start @@ 2010 [[it already has...]]
jusss hopefully not my school year,,,
iHave so many plans && nd responsibilites!!!
jusss hope iT all worksss out...
[oh yeah--> i really dont sleep anymore]] => maybe tonite


pray for me, as i pray for you...
-KEO

one thing i have enjoyed so far...

on thisss winter break of mine...
is mi madre being on good_terms;;;Shes bn so nice...

so ive bn sickc...

since thursday morning...
nd bn on my rag since friday morning;;; not a great combination!!!
trickcs keep pushn my nervesss!!!
oh yeah---> I HAVENT SLEPT IN THREE FREAKN DAYYSSS!!!